Purple Tinted Glasses

From a word document dated Wednesday, March 15, 2006:

My bliss is gone,
For now at least.
Evidence rolls down my cheek.

And some how, as the song says, “You always find a way to keep me right here waiting”.

I’m not as strong as you think I am.

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Amazing.

I used to not understand. Then one day the world decided to come around full circle and opened my eyes for me.

You can’t control who you fall in love with. It just happens. You can’t force yourself on someone else, it just won’t work. You can’t force someone else on you, no matter how right it might feel at the time. You can’t be angry with the one that steals the one you love away. You might be stealing someone away yourself. You can’t be angry with the one who just won’t love you back because, somewhere out there, there’s someone willing to love you back just as you are.

I’ve finally seen it all. Or at least, everything I needed to see to understand my path for the last couple of years. It’s amazing how long ago some things seem and how much these things consumed my life and my thoughts. This is all starting to sound so cliché, but maybe the only reason it seems so silly is because up until now I was so naïve in a sense, lacking in experience.

And by the way, I’m stronger now than you would ever think possible.